It is sad to see people change and forget and leave us, but what can we do? We cannot just force people to still like us when it seems pretty clear
that they already don’t. That is part of growing up and moving forward.
Indeed, life shouldn’t stop there.

The thing is, the world is revolving and everything is happening. People
are interacting and they’re having fun. They continually exchange messages
and they are all enjoying the moment. Everyone has someone to share
everything with, except you. The world is turning and everyone is making
the best out of it to make a happy world, but the thing is, you are not
part of it.

We dream a lot of things. Like, I want to enroll in a theater arts school and go into musical theater. And I want to finish Masters, enroll for Ph.D., and finish it. And I want to be an accomplished individual before 30, so then I could marry the girl I love. And I want to write for this famous magazine. We want to reach for a lot of dreams, but how much effort, considering our present struggles and responsibilities, do we exert to make them real? Up to what extent does fate allow us to reach them, and do we use these limits to our advantage or do we push beyond limits? How do we do that, maneuvering our fate and aligning them to where we want to go?

There are people who think highly of themselves. They think that everyone around them is an idiot and they carry the burden of being intellectuals in a sea of fools. They treat everyone with disgust, thinking that they are wasting time talking to these stupid people. They believe that their way of saying things is the soul truth. They reject other ideologies and consider theirs as the only rational way of looking at things. We would encounter this kind of people, and the least we could do is understand them and not stoop down to what they believe they have is a high level. 

Every experience, no matter how sad or nerve wracking or intimidating, is a learning process. Instead of dwelling on the negative emotions brought about by the uniqueness and unfamiliarity of the experience, always remember that you have to take in everything with openness and transform these into ideologies that would help you grow. That’s about it.

My co-fellow in this seminar asked, why would we settle for someone if we know that it would not last? Why go for someone if you know you would most likely not end up together.

For me, you don’t really have to think about these things in the first place. Sure, you could get cautious, but you will know if your speculations are true only until you try. Sure, you could spare yourself from yet another pain, but isn’t love about taking risk? Isn’t love about enjoying the here and now and not problematizing what is to come? In fact, your overthinking may even affect your budding relationship. It is the reason why it didn’t work, because you are too busy thinking things too much that you forgot to live at the moment. You realize it only when it’s over.

Maybe, just maybe, love is all about guts. If it worked, great. If it didn’t learn and try again. It’s that cycle until your awaited moment, and you would never reach that anticipated moment of finding the right person if you get too cautious to even try. So go ahead. It is always worth a shot.

Most of the time, we are better off not problematizing things. Overthinking sucks and it drains the energy out of you. It even drains with it what is left to call sanity. It is then better to just shrug things off, let things be, and accept what comes and what is to come.

Sometimes, we lose the inspiration, that box of emotion inside us that we open when we need to write from the heart. Sometimes, it’s just unavailable at the moment. And then, we say bullshit. Just like this post over here. 

A writer is someone who writes for others using words woven together to create genuine power. At the same time, he writes for himself, not for fame or anything superficial but for self-expression, for refuge. A writer ventures into writing when he is in happy or pensive mood. Writing is a writer’s sanctuary. He will his emotions to weave words with creativity and passion that only a true writer can muster.

Come to think of it, the laws of motion are the laws of life. Sudden stops create an impact, like how people suddenly stop noticing you excruciatingly hurts. For every motion, there is an equal and opposite reaction. Above all, we fall.

I just wish that we learn as soon as we claim that we did. Then, it would
be easy. Then, it wouldn’t have to hurt.

Problem is, we are vulnerable. We try too hard to fight it, to be strong,
to defy all the odds, but in the end, we stay weak, with a shell so easy to
break. Problem is, we are vulnerable, and we do not accept that.